Pregnancy update.

I feel like I need to introduce myself again. I’ve been a little {a lot} absent on this blog lately…or the last two years. I’m not going to apologize, because I’ve been busy living and loving life, but I’m going to attempt to hop back into posting here a bit more regularly as baby’s due date gets closer.

I’ve avoided taking any dreaded “selfies” so far this pregnancy, which is a far cry from my chalkboard monthly pregnancy last time around. However, to do a pregnancy update without posting a picture seemed a bit criminal. So here ya go…

I feel like I look huge already – way bigger than last time, but I guess that’s normal with round two. It really depends on the day. Some days I don’t have a big belly, but others {like today} are all bump. I can still kinda look not pregnant if I wear certain outfits, but when I put on a tight maternity shirt, there’s no hiding the bulging belly. Here’s another pic I tried to take with my phone, and it captures my life perfectly right now…

She’s my little blur, running circles around me. And yes, I’m barefoot and pregnant – hardy har har. Okay, onto some of the usual questions. If this bores you, sorry; feel free to move on.

How far along are you now?
I’m just a few days away from 19 weeks. I feel like it’s going quickly, probably because I’m so busy being a SAHM who works from home and in the office some too.

How are you feeling?
I’m finally feeling better. I’ve been MIA on the blog through the first half of this pregnancy because I pretty much felt like crap the whole time. I may be wrong, but I feel like this pregnancy has been much different {so far} from my last pregnancy. Last time, my biggest symptom was dizziness; this time, I haven’t experienced hardly an dizziness, but had much more nausea and fatigue. It’s pretty much every night that I wake up around 10pm on the couch to Eugene telling me it’s time to go to bed. I can’t fight it. I just fall asleep daily between 8:30 and 9:30…I’m so exhausted. Around 16 or 17 weeks along, my nasty nausea seemed to dissipate, {thank goodness!} which was perfect timing because Eugene was out of town for a few days right around that time.

Have you had any cravings?
Yes, and they usually change from week to week. For a while, I was craving soups, vegetable soup mainly. I craved tuna salad a few times, and Mexican food this week. I craved milkshakes a couple weeks ago. Contrary to last time, I haven’t craved my two previously biggest cravings popsicles or McDonald’s {ew} at all this time around. Perhaps it will come, but my indigestion has been super bad this time, so the idea of McDonald’s is a total turn off.

Are you going to find out the gender?
Yep. And I’m pretty stinkin excited about it. I don’t like surprises, and I really like planning {hints my career as an Event Planner/Manager.} Eugene likes stats; any info that’s available to him, he wants to know it. So, while I know some people love waiting until birth to find out the gender {I admire you!}, I just don’t think that’s for us right now. I’m not sure if we’ll do a gender reveal party like last time. The timing isn’t great with Eugene’s baseball schedule, and I just don’t know if I have the energy to throw it all together. We’ll see. We had a much more fun announcement with this pregnancy compared to last time {because we were pretty scared last time following the miscarriage,} so I won’t be super disappointed if I can’t pull together another gender party. At the very least, I’d like to at least tell both our families at the same time if possible.

Do you have plans figured out for when baby comes?
Hmm, nope, not really. A lot is hinging on the gender. I purposely picked a room color/scheme that would work with either gender, so we plan to move the little one {who will need to get a new “blog nickname” soon!} into a new big girl room and let baby take the current nursery. As far as work goes, we’re going to keep praying on it. I have a fantastic situation of being able to work from home most of the week, while heading into the office a few days. It’s been a huge God-thing, allowing us to pay off all our debt, but we want to be wise and open to what God wants as our future changes. We’d love to get a bigger vehicle so that I can take my niece places – meaning 3 car seats, but it’s probably doubtful that we can swing that. We’ll continue to use cloth diapers, and I won’t have to purchase any additional ones. Other than all that, I think we’re pretty set – well, that is unless it’s a boy. Then we need manly clothes for sure.

What has you most excited?
Probably the thought of the little one having a sibling. She’s going to absolutely love her baby brother or sister; she’s such a friendly and joyful person, so having a built-in sidekick is going to be awesome for her. I’m also super excited to see Eugene become a dad again. That just might be my favorite part about being a mom – watching him love as a dad – and I cannot wait to see him form that bond again. I’m also really excited to welcome another little being into our family. I think I’ll be able to enjoy the newborn stage more this time around. Last time, I had no concept of the light at the end of the tunnel. We had serious feeding issues, and now I’m aware and prepared for those again. I also wasn’t confident in my mothering skills {although I doubt myself plenty still, don’t get me wrong}, but my fear and anxiety really affected the little one’s demeanor the first few weeks/months. I know it’s tough now. I know the first months are really REALLY rough, but I also know now how absolutely beautiful parenthood gets. I’m not one of those moms who falls instantly in love the second the baby is placed on her chest. I take time to form relationships and bonds. Maybe that’s bad, or maybe it’s taboo to say, but now that I’ve experienced the incredible bond that I have with the little one, I know the sweetness that’s ahead with this baby. The pure joy that grows is unparalleled. And I am so excited for that.